a secret triumph

Good morning folks. Tis Friday, happy dance, well its like 4 degree’s. Hello February! We still have 3 feet of ice, and the high might be 20 today, but I have learned how to layer! Speaking of “layering”. One of the first things I noticed as I was dropping weight is your blood thins so fast and you suddenly discover what “cold” feels like. I spent most of my adult life, either too hot or overheated or not enough AC, fans blowing. I was all about air flow.  The heavier I got, the more hot, overheated I would get. It was hard to tolerate. Today, I decided to check my weight loss progress. I have reached a personal goal. 100 lbs lighter. Yep, it’s true, I secretly never thought I would get there. I mean, 100 lbs, I am not even sure I deemed myself worthy of that number! Imagine my joy when I stepped on the scale and saw that number. I stared at it for a second, peered closer, just to double check I wasn’t seeing it wrong. Then I wept. A secret goal I had set a year or so ago. At first, I stressed myself out about obtaining that within 12 months. I have learned to be really gentle on myself and let the process happen naturally. I giggled to myself afterwards, you don’t need a scale Leelee, you need to throw those size 18 jeans away!So I thought, when you write a post, you should title it, “she knows by her jeans” (Doesn’t every woman really??)Sometimes, “this” is  Unreal, I am in awe. Whose doing this? Not the old Leelee, that’s for sure! When you live in a fat girls body your entire life, this is all quite new. I still think, cook like I am marathon eating? Again, I am gentle on myself. That mindset is quite embedded.  I celebrate inwardly. I am so grateful and rejoice in thanking Jesus for guiding me. A journey, the process, you can’t rush it, just like anything in life, you chip away, you pray daily, you make the effort and put your nutrition and health first. A new concept perhaps, but no doubt, the right one. I know the scale doesn’t lie. Why is it so hard for me to say, YOU did this? This is Your moment? I am going to chalk that up to being a giver, a giver of life. I celebrate and rejoice in other people’s successes and triumphs. Then it dawned on me. I’ve never felt successful. Worthy. Perhaps because I had never truly had it….that is….Not until today.  #loveyourselfandtherestwillfollow. love & peace ~ leelee

One Response to "a secret triumph"

Add Comment
  1. Liz

    February 28, 2015 at 9:15 pm

    I LOVE THAT: “you chip away, pray daily and make the effort”. This could go for SO many things for SO many people. Congratulations!! What an amazing milestone. And to take the time to put yourself first is such an incredible goal, in-and-of itself <3

    Reply

Submit a comment

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *