Another Glorious Day
I will myself to find one beautiful moment each day. I remember to be humbled and thankful for the gift of today. I don’t take things for granted. I learned that many many years ago, when I lost my Dad. I like to think I am like my father in some ways. He was a nature lover, an avid reader, gardener, handyman of sorts. He planned projects and drew his own blueprints. He never just sat and did nothing. He relaxed with a good crossword or a new criminal novel. He enjoyed a hot cup of coffee and a fresh tomato from his garden. He was simplistic, yet profoundly deep. I believe he learned from a very young age that money and possessions fulfill very little in your life. He taught me what truly matters and makes us whole and centered. He was strong with his opinions, abit rough around the edges at times, but I always called him a “realist”. When people would ask his opinion, he would smile and say….”are you sure you wanna hear the truth”. He was short tempered and passionate about loyalty and hardwork. He was a “saver” and it never appeared he yearned for materialistic things. He was strong minded and hardly ever waivered on his decisions. He called himself a self made man. Noone greased his pockets or handed him any trophies. He would tell stories about his police work and career. He would easily tell you that he worked every “ghetto” in New York, but there was no place like home. He pursued his own goals and earned a degree in sociology, he was nearly 40 when he completed it. His life was cut short, instantly, 3rd stage small cell lung carcinoma. I looked it up, noone really survives that stage. He went into treatment and promptly died less than a month after he finished. I hated cancer, I still do. I hated the “cure” even more. Somehow in those 7 months of treatment, he had a spiritual awakening inside. Miracles do happen even when you are dying. He taught me many things throughout my life. After I married and had children, he became my advisor, my rock. I trusted him explicitly. I have never felt so safe and loved. I always took his advice to heart. He gave me his strength to deal with all kinds of stress and disappointment. What I miss about him…its a long list. But I can still hear him tell me. Babygirl, you’re doing the right thing. Don’t give in, stand strong and true to yourself. Listen to your head and your heart and stick to your beliefs. He knew my heart. He touched my soul, he lingers around us all. The biggest lesson he taught…True love lingers in the soul forever, eternally. Today Daddy, I take that love with me and hold it close to my heart.
Enjoy this glorious weekend! xxxx ~ leelee