Sunday, May 12, 2013
I surround myself with your things, your treasures
I cut the stems of your flowers
I put them in your mothers vase and my heart fills with your love & spirit
I know you’re not here, I yearn to hear your voice
I busy myself and fuss around the house, my mind drifting, remembering you
It’s true what they say; Love is eternal, Love never ends
it simply embeds inside your skin. I read poems and quotes and I thank
God for my two beautiful children. I surround myself with your photos
I write and share what you’ve taught me. I do the things I love. I spend time
with people who I love and inspire me. I watch shows about healing and
forgiveness and faith. I strive to be humble and kind and grateful. I try
not to dwell in the past. You and daddy taught me to never give up. I
feel blessed every single day. I don’t take one minute for granted. A few
years ago, you left this earth and you took a piece of me with you. In the
days following, I felt your spirit saturate me, guide me, strengthen me,
comfort me, it was so strong and powerful. I had watched you suffer for days,
I knew you were soaring to heaven, it was so very hard to let you go.
Today, I picked you a huge bouquet of Lilacs. Just like I did as a child.
The lilac bush you bought me for Mothers Day has 20 breathtaking blooms
I clipped a few for you and again, your spirit roared inside me. I could smell
your perfume and feel your warmth around me. For a moment you were with me
just me & you <3. Your energy transcended and cascaded through me.
I am not surprised. I knew you would always be near me. I knew you would
communicate with me from above. We shared our hearts in the physical
world, it was no surprise you would reach me from the spirit world. I tell
everyone I know, everyone I meet. I am the luckiest girl in the world. I had two
amazing, loving, devoted parents who loved me every single day, every single
moment of my life. The truth is…I loved them even more*
~Happy Mothers Day~~
Today its ok for me to say, I miss my mommy and my bestfriend.